And though the nightmares should be over, some of the terrors are still intact. I’ll hear that ugly, coarse and violent voice, and then he grabs me from behind and he pulls me back. When you’ve been controlled and abused by another person, their voice becomes your inner monologue. They don’t need to lay on […]
The last time we spoke, you told me you were going to kill me. That I’d meet the “real” you. I asked you to stop. Told you I was scared. You told me I should be. That you were going to murder me, and that I should be scared. I hid. Took protective measures. Sought […]
No became a word I couldn’t use with you When you asked me to change my perfume as you didn’t like the smell Seemed reasonable When facilitating your life became my responsibility I didn’t refuse When you convinced me my friends weren’t my friends I reluctantly acquiesced When you mocked my choices, and made me […]
I spent approximately five years in a toxic, abusive relationship. I didn’t really understand that what I’d been through constituted domestic violence until a police officer literally spelled it out for me. Writing became my therapy for myself, both when the end of the relationship was fresh, in the period of uncertainty that followed, and […]
Unconditional Unschooling 